Hobart, Tasmania. It’s a pretty quiet, sleepy old port city. I am practically alone, only with a new found friend, a Japanese friend who barely knows English. She had been working in Cairns for 7 months making sushi. My question is, how can you serve in Australia without English? Either way, she was really friendly. Or maybe because she simply smiled and laughed at all my remarks. Eagerly looking for conversation I asked her, “what is your favourite sushi roll?”. She replied with a cute little laugh. “Cool”. I say.
My blog has been on hiatus, my life has been on hiatus for the last 2 months. See I came to Australia wanting to be brave. Doing it alone. Coming back with answers, finding myself and figuring my life out. Well I figured out what I didn’t want to figure out. I wanted to stay. But I figured out that the “successful” things in life are planned. Whatever you define success as. But whatever your life looks like, I know that I need people. I can’t go at anything alone.
That even though I’m in beautiful countries and big cities I am still alone. Unfortunately, I am still alone when I can’t hold a sentence with my Japanese tourist friend.
I miss the deep relationships I have with family and friends. I have access to all the coffee in the world in Melbourne, all the beaches in Queensland, but yet my heart can still ache. To know and be known is so much more that matters.
To be content where you are and become the person you want to be, matters more than where you end up and what you do.
Why can’t I get that through my head? I’ve disrespected and frustrated a lot of people, even more so myself. I’ve done a lot of stupid things, but I’ve learned a lot.
I’ve learned that there are a lot of attractive men in Hobart, which I stand no chance with, as I sport my sneakers and oversized rain gear. I’ve learned that trips and travel are serious gifts. A form of love, one that wins my heart.
I’ve learned that wifi is unreliable down under, for email purposes only. I’ve also learned that family and friends are reliable and I am so thankful for them. You know who you are. I am striving so much to be honest with myself, and with my life, being brave, making decisions and that may not look like the norm- yet I’m okay with that.
Peace. love. Konnichiwa